Balqis tak macam org dakit kan~
Princess At KKH
Kesian kan! Balqis kene masuk Drip kat kaki seh. Tangan dia rebal doctor kata tak dapat cari urat. Den terpaksa cucuk kat kaki. Balqis kan dah pandai merangkak n diri. Dia tak dpt bergerak. Kaki dia sakit. Kesian seh. I cry n cry see her like dat. Jarum tu tajam kan. Haizzz if only i can take all her pains!! It stated on Monday evening. At bishan. I just come back from werk. Balqis look normal, cheerful, playing no signs of illness. After magrib she fall asleep. That is when she wake up she vomit punye lah banyak. Macam satu isi perut keluar seh. Im her mother i noe something is not right. Dia tak pernah muntah macam nie. Den after awhile, muntah lagi. Ya Allah dah confirm ade yang tak kene. Lagi 1/2 hr dia berak cair. Air semua. Dalam kul 1000pm gitu hazli ajak balik Pasir Ris. Dalam kereta dia muntah lagi. Itu lah yang dia tak boleh bangun langsung. Abah dia tak tentu arah bawa kereta. Badan dia panas seh. Bali umah chek temperature 41. Kasi ubat deman, after awhile turun deman den she sleep. Besok nye deman masih ade. Berak abt 12x, muntah 6x. Cannot delay i straight send her KKH. She admitted on Tuesday at ard 100pm. After all the suffer, the pains my balqis have to go thru she still as cheerful, active, happy as before. Look at her. She so happry to get christmas present from Santa Claus.
Look At her leg!!!
So excited with her christmas Gift!
My Princess, she is so strong.
RAMLEE AWANG MURSHID
The Best Novel i ever read. Seriously. Im so in love with the stories. Cant explain how much im deeply in love with the man in the leading role of the story. Laksamana Sunan. History stated him as Wali Sunan. Kesetiaan seorang wali pada Allah swt sungguh menajubkan. Sebab tu lah darjat dia naik sebagai WALI ALLAH SWT.
PART I
PART II
PART III
Dedicate to My Dearest Hazli Hamzah
Termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
tak mampu ku melupakan
walau kian kehilangan
kerna ku terlalu ingin kan
untukmu riang berkekalan
rela ku berlalu
walau mungkin tak termampu
Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu
selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin akan ku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti
Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti
tak ingin saling di lukai
kedaifan ini
menjadi penghalang sanubari
Rela ku terus setiamenyayangi mumenyintai muwalau berjauhanteguh kalimah kasih ku
Happy Birthday Dearest.
I send this msg to him on the day his Birhtday. Isk lost the sms pula. ok it goes something like this lah.
"Abg you mean the WORLD to me. Happy Birthday " Dats it. N im the very first to wish him that at 12 midnight. The next day, no special dinner, no special outing. We went to work as usual. Only den when i walk alone at White sand. I saw this. I tot it will be nice if i bought this for him. Cause its been a long time since he bought this. o maybe for daily used should be ok. I ask the uncle and there its goes i bought it withour second tot. Hehehe.
At night when i surprise him with this, as usual MY HUSBAND remains cool always. But i can see he love it. Its actually nothing compare to the LOVE you shower me, ths care, attention u show. Thks sweetheart for been my life.
"Abg you mean the WORLD to me. Happy Birthday " Dats it. N im the very first to wish him that at 12 midnight. The next day, no special dinner, no special outing. We went to work as usual. Only den when i walk alone at White sand. I saw this. I tot it will be nice if i bought this for him. Cause its been a long time since he bought this. o maybe for daily used should be ok. I ask the uncle and there its goes i bought it withour second tot. Hehehe.
At night when i surprise him with this, as usual MY HUSBAND remains cool always. But i can see he love it. Its actually nothing compare to the LOVE you shower me, ths care, attention u show. Thks sweetheart for been my life.
Where is your responsibility???
Bingit giler! Hp taknak bayar. Pasal dia aku terpaksa pinjam orang untuk bayar kan bill hp kau tahu tak!! Kau tak abis2 susah kan aku. Aku ni jer yang bodoh kesian kan kau, sayang kau, tapi kau penting kan diri sendiri. Hp bill sampai $280 , kau ade pernah fikir macam mane aku nak bayar kan kau dulu.
Oh kau pernah cakap " Aku takde tanggunjawab pasal aku belum kahwin tak payah kasi anak bini makan" Pantat kau abih kau duduk umah tu free ah. Abih kau tanggunjawb aku kepe?? Fikir lah dengan akal yang TUHAN kasi. Jangan jadi manusia bodoh. Kau dah besar panjang. Dah pernah terantuk tapi masih tak berubah. Kau sikit pun tak kesian kan orang tua kat umah tu. Dia dah tak berkerja, dia nak kene tanggun kau kan??Kau ade fikir dari duit mane dia dapat nak kasi kau makan kat umah, nak beli sabun untuk cuci baju kau yang berlambak tu. Beli sabun mandi, obat gigi itu semua pakai duit kan. Mane dia dapat??? Nasib baik laki dia keje. Kau hidup kat umah tu pun dengan duit laki dia juga. Tapi laki dia kau tak suka, kau tak nak pandang. Kau tak rase sikit malu pun eh??
Aku kecewa dgn kau. Aku malu dgn suami aku. Aku cakap kau dah berubah, kau dah jadi insan yang soleh. Pandai baca alquran, tahu makna alquran, Tahu hukum sekali. Tapi sekarang kau jadi lagi teruk dari dulu. Aku tak pernah malu biler kau masuk, sebab aku yakin kau akan berubah biler kau keluar nanti. Kat dalam seribu macam janji kau kasi kat org tua tu, tapi rupanye kau setakat bodoh bodohkan orang tua tu.
Kau sikit pun tak takut dengan Allah swt, kau tak percaya DIA wujud ker? Tegak2 kau lakukan suka hati kau. Macam dah takde arah hidup. Macam dah takde kiblat. Aku tak tahu aper matlamat kau dalam kehidupan. Kau cume fikir pompuan jer ker? Dah satu, satu pompuan kau bawa. Kenaper dengan kau?? Eeeee kalau lah aku boleh luahkan ini semua depan muka kau kan best!!! Aku tak boleh pasal aku dihalang. Kalau aku buat dah confirm2 perang besar!!!
Haizzz aku tak sepatutnye mengeluh. Tapi aku kesal, aku kesal dengan dia. Kenaper dia tak boleh berubah. Kenaper dia tak boleh lelaki yang bertanggunjawab. Dia tak kesian kan mak dia ker? Kesian mak dia selalu hidup dalam ketakutan. Tak boleh tegur kesilapan dia, kalau tegur kene tengkin, herdik. Dia tak takut mati ker? Atau dia fikir dia akan hidup selamanye. Bukan satu orang malah berpuluh orang sumpah seranah dia. Pati satu hari Allah akan tunjuk kan sesuatu. Aku tak nak sampai benda buruk dah betul2 berlaku baru dia nak berubah. Dah tak guna.
I guess its time for me to do something. I can go on living with this type of people.
Oh kau pernah cakap " Aku takde tanggunjawab pasal aku belum kahwin tak payah kasi anak bini makan" Pantat kau abih kau duduk umah tu free ah. Abih kau tanggunjawb aku kepe?? Fikir lah dengan akal yang TUHAN kasi. Jangan jadi manusia bodoh. Kau dah besar panjang. Dah pernah terantuk tapi masih tak berubah. Kau sikit pun tak kesian kan orang tua kat umah tu. Dia dah tak berkerja, dia nak kene tanggun kau kan??Kau ade fikir dari duit mane dia dapat nak kasi kau makan kat umah, nak beli sabun untuk cuci baju kau yang berlambak tu. Beli sabun mandi, obat gigi itu semua pakai duit kan. Mane dia dapat??? Nasib baik laki dia keje. Kau hidup kat umah tu pun dengan duit laki dia juga. Tapi laki dia kau tak suka, kau tak nak pandang. Kau tak rase sikit malu pun eh??
Aku kecewa dgn kau. Aku malu dgn suami aku. Aku cakap kau dah berubah, kau dah jadi insan yang soleh. Pandai baca alquran, tahu makna alquran, Tahu hukum sekali. Tapi sekarang kau jadi lagi teruk dari dulu. Aku tak pernah malu biler kau masuk, sebab aku yakin kau akan berubah biler kau keluar nanti. Kat dalam seribu macam janji kau kasi kat org tua tu, tapi rupanye kau setakat bodoh bodohkan orang tua tu.
Kau sikit pun tak takut dengan Allah swt, kau tak percaya DIA wujud ker? Tegak2 kau lakukan suka hati kau. Macam dah takde arah hidup. Macam dah takde kiblat. Aku tak tahu aper matlamat kau dalam kehidupan. Kau cume fikir pompuan jer ker? Dah satu, satu pompuan kau bawa. Kenaper dengan kau?? Eeeee kalau lah aku boleh luahkan ini semua depan muka kau kan best!!! Aku tak boleh pasal aku dihalang. Kalau aku buat dah confirm2 perang besar!!!
Haizzz aku tak sepatutnye mengeluh. Tapi aku kesal, aku kesal dengan dia. Kenaper dia tak boleh berubah. Kenaper dia tak boleh lelaki yang bertanggunjawab. Dia tak kesian kan mak dia ker? Kesian mak dia selalu hidup dalam ketakutan. Tak boleh tegur kesilapan dia, kalau tegur kene tengkin, herdik. Dia tak takut mati ker? Atau dia fikir dia akan hidup selamanye. Bukan satu orang malah berpuluh orang sumpah seranah dia. Pati satu hari Allah akan tunjuk kan sesuatu. Aku tak nak sampai benda buruk dah betul2 berlaku baru dia nak berubah. Dah tak guna.
I guess its time for me to do something. I can go on living with this type of people.
latest pic of my daughter. I will put up my picture with rita family to sentosa soon k. WAIT!!!
waiting for abah to fetch us to go JB
Balqis with Nani
Arghhh,.. im not sure y. I hate her. She used to be so call my sister. But i just hate her now. Y cause she talk abt my family, my problem that i used to share with her to my other frens. She just cant stop talking. She just full of shit. I cant ignored her. Cause everyday i will see her. Mon to sat.. The more i try to get rid of her the closer she come to me. Hmmm i should just learn to forgive n forget.
She from Sabah, Converted to muslim My brother girlfren at first. The first time my brother broght her was on fasting month. Dat day i n mom was quite pissed off after he told us that his going to bring back ANOTHER girl to meet my mother. Darrr... cant counts how many gerls he bring back actually. She came ard 5+ i guess. The first impression on her was sweet, nice n polite. But in my heart i was saying " Ya Allah kau lindungilah pompuan yang malang nie dari abang aku yang kejam, jauh kan abg aku dari melakukan segala macam benda terhadap dia".. She sit down beside me n balqis,.. she nice yea really. Like to laugh, n always laugh even for the slightest thing. She is special. So we ask her to Hari raya with us.
1 week before Raya, She came. Hmm how i miss that moment. Me n mom are so attracted to her. She is so dear to us. But i can sense that my brother are not getting any futher serious relantionship with her. So thats one night i spent with her. The only night althought is short but i guess as a human being i hav done my job is to advise her on my brother attitute. I dont want to be selfish, to keep her in my family n tell her the goods thing abt my brother w hich is all lie. I dont want her to get married to my brother n suffer. Before her that is another one nice gerl, althought im not so close to her. But i can say she is also nice. She stay near by my house. I dont get the chance to talk to her. But i guess she noe wat she want in life. Which is a MAN not a BOY!
so to cut it short, yes me n umi hope she could be part of our family but still we cant be selfish. She deserved someone better. We miss her, missed her jokes, miss her laughter, miss her talking. But life has to move on. She just came recently Hari raya haji. N im so sad with the treatment my brother show to her. I sit with her laughing with her. But when im in my room, i cry. She is so strong to come to Singapore all alone just to see my brother or maybe to work things out with my brother. N my brother just ignored her. She is brave. At that moment of time i hate my brother so much. I hate him. His not human. He has no heart. He is so fortunate to get to noe someone like her. She went back home after 2 days with us. Im not sure that will be our last meet up. Im not sure if i would hav the chance to meet her again.
One night when im abt to sleep, she crossed my mind. I cry again. I can feel her loneliness. I can feel her world is so quite. No mom to consol, no frens to talk. No one to share a shoulder for her to cry on. She is gifted with a warrior heart to lead her life all by herself.
I just pray u will meet with The One That really meant for you. Insha'Allah.
1 week before Raya, She came. Hmm how i miss that moment. Me n mom are so attracted to her. She is so dear to us. But i can sense that my brother are not getting any futher serious relantionship with her. So thats one night i spent with her. The only night althought is short but i guess as a human being i hav done my job is to advise her on my brother attitute. I dont want to be selfish, to keep her in my family n tell her the goods thing abt my brother w hich is all lie. I dont want her to get married to my brother n suffer. Before her that is another one nice gerl, althought im not so close to her. But i can say she is also nice. She stay near by my house. I dont get the chance to talk to her. But i guess she noe wat she want in life. Which is a MAN not a BOY!
so to cut it short, yes me n umi hope she could be part of our family but still we cant be selfish. She deserved someone better. We miss her, missed her jokes, miss her laughter, miss her talking. But life has to move on. She just came recently Hari raya haji. N im so sad with the treatment my brother show to her. I sit with her laughing with her. But when im in my room, i cry. She is so strong to come to Singapore all alone just to see my brother or maybe to work things out with my brother. N my brother just ignored her. She is brave. At that moment of time i hate my brother so much. I hate him. His not human. He has no heart. He is so fortunate to get to noe someone like her. She went back home after 2 days with us. Im not sure that will be our last meet up. Im not sure if i would hav the chance to meet her again.
One night when im abt to sleep, she crossed my mind. I cry again. I can feel her loneliness. I can feel her world is so quite. No mom to consol, no frens to talk. No one to share a shoulder for her to cry on. She is gifted with a warrior heart to lead her life all by herself.
I just pray u will meet with The One That really meant for you. Insha'Allah.
I have alots to write,.. but just cant find the time. Lots of pic to upload, lots of songs in my mind to download. Hmm im just very busy.. Busy?? Not really im free actually if im not werking. But i used every precious free time with my little angel, n my dearest husband. So i guess tomorrow might be the right time for me to update all that i want to. Do all my pending work. Yea.. Ok dah gtg.. Love ya!!
Miss U
I dunno why, but i kinda off lonely, althought he beside me. I guess i just missed himm very much. I miss the moment we working together, goinh to werk togther, breakfast togther, making drinks togther, missed the lunch break. Misses the moment we share our work load. The moment i stare at u during office hr. Misses the laughter we share at werk. Misses everything abt u. Of course i still see u at home. But it just so different. The moment u reach home, u are so tired. Bath, pray n sleep. Hmmm i miss u dear...
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