For You Hero Of My Heart!

Guess What my princess 1st step yesterday, at the age of 8 months only. Mommy's angels never stop giving us surprises.. But of course she walk n fall, stand up again walk n fall. Hehe Im supposed my baby is growing really fast. She's going to 9 months old soon. Another 3 month my baby will celebrate her 1st year birthday. Should i held a party? But where? Anyway Princess when u gonna cal me "mummy"?

Last nite i slept at 1.00am again. Dunno why i just cant close my eyes. Things has never been good so far. Actually i did breakdown, i cry n cry. Why am i in such a difficult situation now. I try to hide from everyone, especially hazli. I try to be brave but its teribbly hurting me inside. What else can i do. Late at night when everyone soundly sleep, i pray. That is the only way for me to let it out, Allah is a great listener. I felt better everytime I talk to Allah. HE hears me, i believe watever im thru now is task from HIM. HE love me, HE have better plan for me. Down the road i shall see Happiness. All i need is to be patience, n except eveything with smile.

2009 baru bermula dah macam2 terjadi. Tak seindah yang aku sanka kan. Aku mengharap kan sedikit perubahan tapi rase2 macam same jer. I can say it is not a nice begining. So much tears, so much pain, so much burden, so much this n that. I just hope that i can settle most of my outstanding bills, bank loan etc this year. My target is stabilise my finacial this year. Im just tired of been so generous to others but in the end all the burden i have to face it alone.

Balqis pun kene selsema, cute seh hingus dia meleleh. Aper lagi nak buat duk umah nie. Besok hazli go interview. Kalau dapat bagus lah untuk dia. He like the job very much. k lah dah masuk magrib pun. Nak sembahyang dulu. Continue later.

Selamat Tahun Baru 2009 dan 1430hijrah

Alhamdulilah, Allah swt telah memajang kan umur kite sehingga kini. Seperti Wali sunan selalu berkat " MATI itu PASTI, HIDUP INSHA'ALLAH" selalu ingat kan diri kite akan kematian. Agat kite sentiasa dalam keadaan penuh keinsafan. Hmm 2008 adelah tahun yang bersejarah, suka, duka, susah, senang, perit , sakit, bahagia, gembira hidup berumahtangga. Dengan kehadiran permaisuri kami Nur Hasya Balqis kehidupan bertambah matang. Tangguhjawab bertambah dari Isteri ke seorang EMAK. Bayang kan seorang wanita memikul dua tangguhjawab berat yang pasti akan dituntut di akhirat kelak. Dapat kah kita laksanakan dgn sempurna? Seperti peribahasa. "Seorang wanita menyusu anak disebelah tangan kanan nye, dan sebelah tangan kiri nye mampu mengegar DUNIA." I guess its true.
Just hope for the best in 2009. I get more beautiful children, stable financial, a house i call my own, my sis n bro in law getting married, everything under my wishlist to come true this year. Insha'Allah...