Arghhh,.. im not sure y. I hate her. She used to be so call my sister. But i just hate her now. Y cause she talk abt my family, my problem that i used to share with her to my other frens. She just cant stop talking. She just full of shit. I cant ignored her. Cause everyday i will see her. Mon to sat.. The more i try to get rid of her the closer she come to me. Hmmm i should just learn to forgive n forget.
She from Sabah, Converted to muslim My brother girlfren at first. The first time my brother broght her was on fasting month. Dat day i n mom was quite pissed off after he told us that his going to bring back ANOTHER girl to meet my mother. Darrr... cant counts how many gerls he bring back actually. She came ard 5+ i guess. The first impression on her was sweet, nice n polite. But in my heart i was saying " Ya Allah kau lindungilah pompuan yang malang nie dari abang aku yang kejam, jauh kan abg aku dari melakukan segala macam benda terhadap dia".. She sit down beside me n balqis,.. she nice yea really. Like to laugh, n always laugh even for the slightest thing. She is special. So we ask her to Hari raya with us.
1 week before Raya, She came. Hmm how i miss that moment. Me n mom are so attracted to her. She is so dear to us. But i can sense that my brother are not getting any futher serious relantionship with her. So thats one night i spent with her. The only night althought is short but i guess as a human being i hav done my job is to advise her on my brother attitute. I dont want to be selfish, to keep her in my family n tell her the goods thing abt my brother w hich is all lie. I dont want her to get married to my brother n suffer. Before her that is another one nice gerl, althought im not so close to her. But i can say she is also nice. She stay near by my house. I dont get the chance to talk to her. But i guess she noe wat she want in life. Which is a MAN not a BOY!
so to cut it short, yes me n umi hope she could be part of our family but still we cant be selfish. She deserved someone better. We miss her, missed her jokes, miss her laughter, miss her talking. But life has to move on. She just came recently Hari raya haji. N im so sad with the treatment my brother show to her. I sit with her laughing with her. But when im in my room, i cry. She is so strong to come to Singapore all alone just to see my brother or maybe to work things out with my brother. N my brother just ignored her. She is brave. At that moment of time i hate my brother so much. I hate him. His not human. He has no heart. He is so fortunate to get to noe someone like her. She went back home after 2 days with us. Im not sure that will be our last meet up. Im not sure if i would hav the chance to meet her again.
One night when im abt to sleep, she crossed my mind. I cry again. I can feel her loneliness. I can feel her world is so quite. No mom to consol, no frens to talk. No one to share a shoulder for her to cry on. She is gifted with a warrior heart to lead her life all by herself.
I just pray u will meet with The One That really meant for you. Insha'Allah.
1 week before Raya, She came. Hmm how i miss that moment. Me n mom are so attracted to her. She is so dear to us. But i can sense that my brother are not getting any futher serious relantionship with her. So thats one night i spent with her. The only night althought is short but i guess as a human being i hav done my job is to advise her on my brother attitute. I dont want to be selfish, to keep her in my family n tell her the goods thing abt my brother w hich is all lie. I dont want her to get married to my brother n suffer. Before her that is another one nice gerl, althought im not so close to her. But i can say she is also nice. She stay near by my house. I dont get the chance to talk to her. But i guess she noe wat she want in life. Which is a MAN not a BOY!
so to cut it short, yes me n umi hope she could be part of our family but still we cant be selfish. She deserved someone better. We miss her, missed her jokes, miss her laughter, miss her talking. But life has to move on. She just came recently Hari raya haji. N im so sad with the treatment my brother show to her. I sit with her laughing with her. But when im in my room, i cry. She is so strong to come to Singapore all alone just to see my brother or maybe to work things out with my brother. N my brother just ignored her. She is brave. At that moment of time i hate my brother so much. I hate him. His not human. He has no heart. He is so fortunate to get to noe someone like her. She went back home after 2 days with us. Im not sure that will be our last meet up. Im not sure if i would hav the chance to meet her again.
One night when im abt to sleep, she crossed my mind. I cry again. I can feel her loneliness. I can feel her world is so quite. No mom to consol, no frens to talk. No one to share a shoulder for her to cry on. She is gifted with a warrior heart to lead her life all by herself.
I just pray u will meet with The One That really meant for you. Insha'Allah.
I have alots to write,.. but just cant find the time. Lots of pic to upload, lots of songs in my mind to download. Hmm im just very busy.. Busy?? Not really im free actually if im not werking. But i used every precious free time with my little angel, n my dearest husband. So i guess tomorrow might be the right time for me to update all that i want to. Do all my pending work. Yea.. Ok dah gtg.. Love ya!!
Miss U
I dunno why, but i kinda off lonely, althought he beside me. I guess i just missed himm very much. I miss the moment we working together, goinh to werk togther, breakfast togther, making drinks togther, missed the lunch break. Misses the moment we share our work load. The moment i stare at u during office hr. Misses the laughter we share at werk. Misses everything abt u. Of course i still see u at home. But it just so different. The moment u reach home, u are so tired. Bath, pray n sleep. Hmmm i miss u dear...
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