I feel like to faint them moment i saw blood. I shout for hazli to look,.. Im pregnant n im bleeding. It look exactly like menses. Dark red color. One lump of blood clog. I cry. Den hazli try to consol me down. He den bring his ear close to my tummy to hear the heartbeat. There is, i cant feel it too. Ok lah at least it cool me down a bit. Den i call minah, she told me is best not to delay. Den i call my gynae. He ask me afew question den when he say " SITI HAWA awk tak boleh tunggu sampai besok kalau awk nak kandungan awk selamat, you better go down to A&E now. I see you there"
We reach there ard 1230am, while waiting for Dr Aziz i cry n cry, i told myself wat a selfish mother i am. I dont look after myself when im carrying my seocond baby. I drink cold drinks everday, i drink coke, i drink 100%, i run, i lift up heavy things. I just so cruel. My little tiny baby is growing inside me n i very bad to make my baby suffer. Hazli try to cool me down in the same time blaming me also lah because of my selfishness. After awhile doctor came, he did ultrasound, scan my tummy.. YES i saw my baby, yes doctor i saw my angel inside n heartbeat still beating. My placanta no blood, my baby inside my womb, everthing look just fine. So Doctor says your baby might be fine now but i cant gurantine you. Cause i refuse to be admitted so i have to take the risk. The blood is from my cervix.But this bleed cannot be worst, it will affect my waterbag. Doctor gave me so many medicine and i must complete it. I have to bedrriden for 1 weeks until i stop bleeding.Hospitalization leave for a week. Cannot go anywhere except for toilet only. (havent infom markus yet. ) So i cannot be selfish anymore. Must strictly look after myself. Its for my tiny angel inside me. Mak love you sayang, althougt you're not fully form but i cant feel you. I will take of you.

Went to Anchorvale swimming complex with my family except my hubby,. He cant take leave. He have to work im enjoying with my family. The place is new n quite fun i guess. But i still prefer jurong east. Althought they creating similar but not so interesting. Not much pools for adults. Actually im fed up, cause have to be proper swinning suits. Yea i forget to bring my bikini MR LIFEGUARD!! i left it at home, if i will to bring my bikini suits i guess you be the 1st to faint. 2nd my husband. Hahahaha. So u just sit by the side n play with balqis. She really suprise me. The moment i put her in the boyah,.. she can easily float by herself. She lift up her leg as if she is swimming. I was like oh GOD, you're so fast!! Hahaha. I let her float all by herself without us ard. Me n sister stay quite distant from her. She manage to swim beck to us. Suprised rite?? She only 10mths old, come on her dad dont even noe how to swim.. Ooops.. Sorry baby!! Your daughter is better than u!! Hahaha. I cant take much picture as i was in the pool all wet, the moment the lifeguard gone me n sister splash in the pools, Hahaha fun n enjoying moment. So only a few pic taken by Nazzeera..

Random pic of my hubby. I didnt noe he so cute!!

Look at how fast my princess grow.. She is our diamond. She has complete our life althought we want more. No matter how tired will be, upon seeing her all the tired just vanish. She bring happiness to my family, her smile melted us. I love you princess althought you gonna share our love with your coming siblings, we promised you that our love to you wont never be lesser infact it gonna grow stronger.. look at her below

She's With The Wig

She Got My Car Key

Ngup!

Merajuk!

Mucung Ikut Siaper Agaknye!

Look at her style of sleeping, like her dad !

Im back after finding time to touch my notebook again. I guess i ever mention that i want to let out a secret which i guess most of my close babes noe..

Went to my gynae and im confirm 2 months pregnant. YEA!!! I gonna have another baby.. My family is growing. N i love it so much. My princess gonna be big sister now. After knowing im pregnant i immediately pray Solat Shukur. I thanks Allah swt. I may not be rich, i may be strugging to live but i dont mind, cause Allah have given me the most expensive gift in my life. What else i want in this world except for seeing my beloved hubby very happy to hear the news. His smile has brigten my world. I love you dear, this is result of our LOVE.

Dearest Readers,

Gonna stop writes for awhile.

Im not in the mood, im tired, im SICK.

Nobody seems to care.

Expecially my love.

I can feel that we drifted apart.

Our marrige gonna reach our 2 years aniversary,

it seems that everything so dull.

Im not sure if this is my own stupid feelings or issit the truth!!

I just miss him so much. Dats all dear.

Not sure when i will write again in my boring blogs.. Darrr!!!!